Sweet Disposition
My hungry demon was fed with it's favourite kind of poison and it started rattling it's cage.
Everything was clear in my head, like a regular Sunday morning, my disposition became calm. I knew it was what it is and probably nothing more, and I decided to make the most of it and enjoy the moments we have together. Again a long while of just that and nothing more, no matter how much I'd love for it to be more.
I felt content, I did it once before and it made me feel happy so I knew it was gonna be okay this way. Besides, that bond we forged the past four months is something special and precious.
There's no name for it, it's just there.
In utter darkness and chaos it brought us together again, and then I knew it wasn't an illusion of my wicked mind.
But then, there seemed to be more, again. After I made peace with myself since it was clear, chaos came creeping up again, my hungry demon was fed with its favourite kind of poison and it started rattling its cage.
Confusion arose with its saliva running through my veins, interwoven with those chemicals. That small glimmer of hope began to shine for just a little bit, until it again was pushed back into darkness.
For now it'll stay like this, and I'm fine with it. I'm already happy with her by my side, just the way we are now. Whatever the future may bring, that's something to deal with when the time comes.
But for now, it's okay.
I'm okay. We're okay..