Rendez-Vous
I needed to bring you back..
Been listening to the same songs today over and over again, a few bring me right back to past times. The same feelings, the same mood.. sometimes even the same scent oddly enough. As far as I can remember, you used to help a lot getting things straighten out in my head. Another reason I decided to breathe life into you once again, just to have a place aside from my little book to jot down my thoughts and memories.
Day in, day out, I exhaust myself with over-thinking everything. Some parts of the day I spend drowning in my own thoughts, which is nice sometimes. Other parts of the day I spend living other lives beside my own by playing games and watching Tv.
Still, I like to be realistic. Can't help that I'm a dreamer though, part of it being one of the typical self-defense mechanisms we humans have. Makes me wonder, if it's so bad to drop into a little fantasy world every now and then.. Where the bad things don't exist and things being how they should be for my feeling.
The last couple of days I've been dwelling there, mostly when I'm asleep of course. Which is normal, aside from the part that I seem to have a whole other world going on in there.
It seems I've gotten used to feeling how I feel and I've accepted things for how they are. Still, there's bound to happen something sooner or later..