Last Day Together
If it would mean I could spend eternity together with her, I would do it in an heartbeat.
Seeing her today was torture to say the least, surrounded by an invisible glass box I was unable to get near her. I could only enjoy her presence from a distance, no matter how small the gap was, she already seemed miles away. Which she will be in a few days, for a little while..
We said our goodbyes, and I walked home with the feeling that this was it. The moment that couldn't stay away. Once I got home, my phone was vibrating. It was her, she was coming by to drop off some stuff our friend forgot at her place. I could see her for a little bit longer, numbing the pain a little bit. I held her close to me for a little while. She left once again, turned around and smiled at me. There I stood, staring at her while she vanished from my view. This time she was gone for real.
She asked me if I wanted to live forever once, spend my life in the time of day where I'm at my best. At the time itself, I didn't know. Again I was contemplating on ending my life, this time just to start another. If it would mean I could spend eternity together with her, I would do it in an heartbeat. Prowling the streets at night, feeding of the precious essence of life, enjoying the only light we could endure. Each sunrise a new chance to end it all for good..