Blessed with a Curse
They escape and play around with my body, controlling me like a mere puppet.
Blessed with this curse of mine I struggle through my life from day to day, not many days go by without me wanting to end it all. But I can't just shut down, I can't leave them behind, how much I'd like to sometimes. So instead, I just puncture holes inside of myself to give my demons some air to breathe, keep them from screaming inside of my head. I find myself longing to escape my own reality, fall into the worlds my favourite authors portray.
The rattling of their cages make my bones shiver, their saliva seeps into my bloodstream.. My state of mind being blurred by fears. Feel like throwing up constantly, let them exit my being, but they just stay in their place. They escape and play around with my body, controlling me like a mere puppet. I feel like ending my life here and now, taking them down with me. Making this barren place a bit more bearable for the ones I love.